Hi everyone, today is a big day for me and I believe February 18th
will forever be a day that I will never forget.
(the photo is from a couple of years ago but it looks the same outside my back door today :)
3 years ago today I had a huge life changing operation that forever changed me. The Big O (click highlighted link to read that post) day started out with fasting, as any surgery would, however my surgery wasn’t scheduled until 3pm, wow what a long time to fast you may think…..not for me. I had been in 24/7 pain and bleeding for 4 weeks prior so I didn’t even notice that I was hungry. All I could think about was removing the part of me that had failed and was causing me so many problems; it was time to end it.
I really shouldn’t say that it failed me, well at least not totally. Those little organs gave me 3 beautiful children that I cherish more than my own life, so they did what God designed them to do.
That fateful hour came and I still remember sitting in the pre op chair and the nurse was amazed that I wasn’t starving, I just looked at her and said that I was in so much pain that I had no appetite and I told her I was looking forward to the IV that would bring me peace and put an end to my pain….it did it’s job well….I slept.
I don’t remember very much at all when it was over, but I do remember my girls & husband being there, foggy, but still I remember the comfort they provided.
I went to sleep and it was over, just like that…..a new life, new obstacles, but no pain.
So enough about that, I want to tell you a little bit about what I have learned over the past 3 years, mainly to give comfort and encouragement to any woman out there preparing to change their own life with the Big O.
1) I can’t stress this enough, give yourself plenty of time to heal for at least 6 weeks if not longer. Do exactly what your doctor orders to ensure that you don’t pull anything on the inside and cause scar tissue to form, for that scar tissue can come back and cause you pain years down the road….so take care of yourself. Even if you feel better on the outside you still have hundreds of stitches on the inside that take a lot longer to heal.
2) For me I chose not to take HRT. Having so much endo in me was a little scary that the artificial estrogen (HRT) could possible cause any remaining microscopic pieces of endo to start growing and therefore back to square one/pain. Not taking hormones is a personal choice of mine and each woman must make their own decisions on this one.
3) I have developed arthritis, mainly from not having the estrogen. But I really had to way my choices: take HRT and risk health issues that they can cause or not take it and deal with whatever life brings on, including arthritis. I’m doing ok with it. After accepting the fact that exercise hurts wayyyyy too much, the choice to forego exercise was a huge change for me since I was use to taking care of my body by exercising. Now I manage my weight with portion control/calorie counting. One day I hope to be able to exercise again, but after many failed attempts, I’m not rushing it.
4) Depression-yes the Big O can cause depression. This is a touchy subject and I just want everyone to know I empathize with each of you going through it. I am working daily on combating depression and I know that anti depressants could work wonders for me but I also know about their side effects and have taken them before-so I’m not looking to go that route again. However I have found Holy Basil and Lemongrass teas really do help with the anxiety and depression, so I’m good.
5) Weight gain-oh yea, I experienced it and gained about 22 pounds, but I’m ok with it because I have honestly tried to lose it and not a single pound would come off, but I feel better than I have in a long time so I won’t beat myself up about a few pounds.
6) Vaginal Dryness-ugh, what a horrible word to talk about, it is inevitable that this will occur when you don’t take hormones, but I think I am luckier than most because it doesn’t bother me very much at all, heck for the past 15-20 years (prior to the Big O) I had more bleeding, spotting, breakthrough bleeding, periods that lasted well past 19 days…. basically I bled forever…..so if I have a desert down there is just fine with me, I like dryness. Enough about that subject.
7) Libido-I’m not even going to talk about this one because it is what it is, make the most of what you have.
8) Wearing white-yayyy I can wear white any day of the year, any year and never ever have to worry again.
9) Maxi Pads-I never have to invest in this product again, not even panty liners-another yayyyyyy!
10) Online sites-you may want to be leary of joining too many online website about hysterectomies because there are a lot of horror stories on there and they can scare you to death. YOU are an individual with individual health problems and only you and your doctor can determine the path that you need to take to feel your best.
There you go, just a few of the points that have changed me in the past 3 years. I hope that they have helped someone out there know they aren’t alone after such a life changing operation. I also don’t want my girls to get depressed thinking that this could happen to them, remember that you guys are your own person and what happened to me may not necessarily happen to you.
Thanks for dropping by, have a wonderful day.